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21 April 2015 @ 03:34 pm
he joined instagram less than 2 days ago and he posted 101 pics like he's making up for lost time or something lol

gotta love him he's so cute! i just hope he doesnt forget his password or stops updating i think i'd cry lol.

he must really love art......
14 April 2015 @ 04:44 pm
i need new ones.......
07 April 2015 @ 02:29 pm
i'm obsessed! i think they're taking over my life. escapism at it's best.
03 April 2015 @ 11:34 pm
i feel so damn depressed lately. it just sucks when you do so much for others and no one in return is looking out for you and that includes yourself. i just do so damn much and i'm tired. i haven't treated myself in YEARS!!! always taking care of and busting my ass for others but no one gives a fuck about me. like can i just get a damn thank you!?
02 August 2014 @ 08:21 pm
My mind is all over the place. It's crazy how i know what i want to say in my mind and it sounds awesome but when i actually say it aloud it comes out in messy sentences with my ideas all over the place. I hate being like this. My mind just jumbles all over the place making it hard as hell to communicate, got people looking at me confused trying to figure out what i'm trying to say or if i even know what i'm saying. It sucks... too conscious of other people's opinion of me that i try to be as invisible as possible. The day i stop giving a fuck about others opinions may be the day i'll be able to get my thoughts together.

I also need to get out more.......I need new friends...
05 April 2013 @ 08:43 pm
I need to be more active in communities i seem to only lurk (it's easier that way). Gosh i'm so lazy.

So i recently turned 20 exactly a month ago from today and i'm not sure if it's from me being older or the fandom being stale as hell that i don't keep up with it as much as i used to. All these new kids debuting out the womb makes me feel old as shit and it sure as hell doesn't help when the people my age look like their still in middle school!!! UGH i can't win fuck it.

I wanna change my user name and I need new icons like last year....need to find me some mario maurer ones he's so YUMMY lol
23 July 2012 @ 05:35 pm
Today i get a call from my father stating that a family friend has a paid intern opening for me to do payroll. Of course i'm super excited since this is a job and i need money BUT i also filled out an application for a job who is doing a mass hiring for a new department opening and i'm not sure what the hell i should do!!!!

With the internship i guess i could gain a valuable learning experience although i'm super awkward and have a sort of adult phobia and i'll be working with the CEO's sister which a little too much for my awkwardness to handle and i'll be doing payroll which i have no idea how to do!!! The pro's is that i can extend my network of people but seriously i'm going to school to be a nurse if it was an intern at a hospital i'd be super hyped. Since the whole thing is through a connection i'm super happy and grateful BUT i really don't want to let her down because i am a bit of a dunce when it comes to doing pretty much anything. :( 

The mass hiring is well pretty much a guaranteed job that i need at the moment. It's full time and unlike the intern it doesn't have an expiration date. The job is literally 10 minutes from my house and since there is only one car in my house this would be a major plus. 

I don't know as much as i'm a little skeptical of the internship i have a hunch that taking this intern would be more helpful than harmful and i could possibly apply to the other one later and (hopefully) this internship could give me a leg up in landing that job later on.

Did i mention having to wear business attire that i don't own? Hell i barely own clothes and of what i do have consists of all t-shirts and jeans!!

I just hope that i can be deemed helpful and worthy of employment. Seriously i'm a complete dunce and i grasp on to things slowly.  I barely have any job experience and my social skills are lacking. i really don't want to disappoint anyone or fuck up anyone's paycheck lol.
10 June 2012 @ 12:12 am
ALL OF MY MUSIC IS DELETED!!!!!! with no back-up or nothing :p my mp3 suddenly just won't turn on and when i plug it into the computer i still can't get my music off of it. OMG i'm gonna go INSANE!!!!!!! first all my videos and now all of my music.... i can't.

i got shit on there that i can't even find n e where, not that i listen to it but u just needed to have it AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. all my arashi, kanjani8, kat-tun, NEWS, tokio, sug, gackt, jay chou, big bang, super junior, snsd, Mblaq, shinee, shimiza shota, ayaka, lee soo young, lee min ki, miyavi omfg kill me now my life is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im hoping if i just leave it alone for a few days it will fix itself. please fix yourself mp3 player i beg you...
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07 May 2012 @ 12:13 am
Last week of school!!!! YAY!!!! it's been a long freaking semester like seriously school's been kicking my ass and i'm tired...
but n e who last week i was in school minding my own business studying whenthis girl comes up to me and says excuse me Sir, Sir. I was so damn shock i'm like wth did this girl just call me a Sir?????? like omg i know i be going to school busted as hell but Sir!!!!!!! i don't think i look like a man!!!!! FML...FML.

ok so by the time i'm done this it will be May 7th so i just have to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KUBOZUKA YOUSUKE!!!!!!!! **throws confetti** he's gonna be 33 today!!!!! the man is hot as hell and i'd wish he'd return to making television drama's the man can act his ass off!!! and trust dramaland needs him... A.S.A.P i'm seriously bored with drama's these days i'm trying to find a decent drama to watch but can't. i watch j,t and k drama's but can't find n e thing that will keep my interest.... it's hard as hell!!!!! so i've joined my sister in watching Vampire diares and my mom watching Scandal <----------- THIS SHOW IS FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!

back on topic: again HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUBOZUKA YOUSUKE!!!!!

i reccomend to watch his drama ikebukuro west gate park... his supporting role as king was amazing too funny!!! you'll fall in love with him

i'd also reccomend his movies: GO! and Laundry(i found this movie sad cute and him sooo damn adorable)

if only he wasn't married with a child....

ok, fuck spell check, im done. need...sleep...nowZZZzzzz...
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12 February 2012 @ 12:20 am
seriously 2012 is just taking everyone for a ride and it just started!!!! i just can't...

whitney houston has inspired so many people she had an amazing voice that will never be forgotten!!!
my prayers go out to her family and friends...

R.I.P girl you bet we all down here will miss you <3

****calling up the friends for a waiting to exhale movie night*****
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